I was always the \u201cfat girlfriend\u201d until my boyfriend broke up with me for my best friend. Six months later, on the day of their wedding, I discovered how mistaken he had been about me.<\/p>\n
When his mother contacted me on the day of their wedding, she said, \u201cYou do NOT want to miss this.\u201d I was the \u201cfat girlfriend\u201d that my ex-boyfriend had discarded for my best friend.<\/p>\n
My name is Larkin, I\u2019m 28F, and I\u2019ve always been \u201cthe big girl.\u201d<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I so discovered how to be lovable.<\/p>\n
Not too cute. Simply put, large.<\/p>\n
The one family member who whispers about sugar in the corner during Thanksgiving. Strangers say, \u201cYou\u2019d be so pretty if you lost a little weight.\u201d<\/p>\n
I so discovered how to be lovable.<\/p>\n
Funny, trustworthy, and helpful. The friend who remembers everyone\u2019s coffee order, arrives early to assist with setup, and remains late to clean. I would be the most helpful if I couldn\u2019t be the most beautiful.<\/p>\n
Before the night was over, he asked for my number.<\/p>\n
Sayer (31M) met that person during trivia night.<\/p>\n
I was with my buddy Abby (27F), and he was with colleagues. He made a joke about me \u201ccarrying the table,\u201d and I torched his well-groomed beard after my team won. Before the night was over, he asked for my number.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
He was the first to text me.He wrote, \u201cYou\u2019re refreshing.\u201d \u201cYou are not a typical female. You are genuine.<\/p>\n
We spent nearly three years dating.<\/p>\n
A warning sign in retrospect. I melted at the time.<\/p>\n
We spent nearly three years dating.<\/p>\n
Weekends away, toothbrushes in each other\u2019s places, and shared Netflix accounts. We discussed \u201csomeday\u201d children, moving in together, and possibly acquiring a dog.<\/p>\n
Maren (28F), my best friend, was a part of that existence.Someone who never treats you like a backup is what you deserve.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Since college, we had been pals. Even though she\u2019s small, blonde, and naturally slender, her \u201cI forgot to eat today\u201d attitude makes others laugh and yet adore her. At my dad\u2019s funeral, she held my hand. When I was feeling anxious, she would spend the night on my couch.<\/p>\n
I remember her saying, \u201cYou deserve someone who never makes you feel like a backup.\u201d<\/p>\n
That same female was in my bed with my boyfriend six months ago.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
literally.<\/p>\n
He touched her hip. My pillow with her hair on it.<\/p>\n
A shared photo notification appeared on my iPad while I was at work. Sayer and I were both cute and dumb, so our devices were in sync.<\/p>\n
Without thinking, I tapped it.<\/p>\n
My bedroom was there.<\/p>\n
My comforter is gray. My throw pillow, which is yellow.<\/p>\n
Maren and Sayer in the center. Without a shirt. I\u2019m laughing. He touched her hip. Her hair was on my pillow.\u201dAre you alright?\u201d<\/p>\n
My brain briefly attempted to persuade me that it was phony or outdated.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
My stomach then turned over.I grabbed my luggage and informed Abby, \u201cI have to go.\u201d\u201dAre you alright?\u201d she inquired.No, \u201cI said, and walked out.\u201dDo you want to share anything with me?<\/p>\n
I waited while sitting on my couch with that picture open.<\/p>\n
Sayer was humming when he entered. His keys were thrown into the bowl.You\u2019re at home, sweetie\u2014\u201dDo you want to share anything with me? I inquired.<\/p>\n
I saw the remorse flash across his face and then\u2026 vanish when he froze and noticed the iPad.I didn\u2019t intend for you to learn this way.\u201d<\/p>\n
He didn\u2019t refute it.<\/p>\n
He remained calm.<\/p>\n
He simply let out a sigh.\u201dI didn\u2019t intend for you to learn this way,\u201d he continued.<\/p>\n
Just like this. Not \u201cI didn\u2019t mean to do this.\u201dShe\u2019s simply more my kind.<\/p>\n
Behind him, Maren exited the hallway.<\/p>\n
bare legs. My sweatshirt was too big. My pal.I said, \u201cI trusted you.\u201d My voice sounded strangely serene. \u201cBoth of you.\u201d<\/p>\n
He moved as though they were negotiating.He remarked, \u201cShe\u2019s just more my type.\u201d \u201cMaren is slender. She is stunning. It is important.You failed to look after yourself.<\/p>\n
There was a buzz in the room.<\/p>\n
He continued.Larkin, you\u2019re fantastic. You truly are. He remarked, \u201cYou have such a good heart.\u201d However, you neglected to look for yourself. I deserve to be matched by someone.\u201d<\/p>\n
The line that truly made an impact was that one.<\/p>\n
For his belongings, I gave him a trash bag.<\/p>\n
Just like me.<\/p>\n
As if I didn\u2019t belong in his outfit.<\/p>\n
Maren remained silent. Not one. She simply let him speak while crossing her arms and sparkling her eyes.<\/p>\n
For his belongings, I gave him a trash bag.<\/p>\n
She should leave my key on the counter, I urged her.<\/p>\n
They got engaged in three months.<\/p>\n
Then I felt everything fall apart as I sat on the floor of my kitchen.<\/p>\n
They were sharing a few pictures within weeks.<\/p>\n
They got engaged in three months.<\/p>\n
I received screenshots from people. Half of my contacts were muted.<\/p>\n
Abby volunteered to assist me in slashing his tires. I replied no while laughing and crying.<\/p>\n
That voice in my head made it unbearable for me to be in my body.<\/p>\n
I choose to focus all of the hate on myself instead.<\/p>\n
I convinced myself that he simply said what everyone else believes. But you\u2019re fantastic. But you\u2019re funny. You would have shed the weight if you truly loved him.<\/p>\n
That voice in my head made it unbearable for me to be in my body.<\/p>\n
The only thing I could manage, I began to change.<\/p>\n
I moved forward little by little.<\/p>\n
I signed up for Abby\u2019s gym.<\/p>\n
I was on the treadmill for eight minutes on the first day before my lungs burned. I hid in the toilet, pretended I had to urinate, and sobbed.<\/p>\n
I returned on the second day.<\/p>\n
I moved forward little by little. jogged. Light weights were lifted. In order to avoid seeming foolish, I watched YouTube form videos while driving.<\/p>\n
I reduced my takeout intake. learned how to cook veggies without scorching them. My food was obsessively logged. increased the amount of water consumed.<\/p>\n
Then I saw that my face was sharper in the mirror.<\/p>\n
Nothing appeared different for weeks.<\/p>\n
My jeans then became loose.<\/p>\n
Then I saw that my face was sharper in the mirror.<\/p>\n
Then a coworker remarked, \u201cYou look great. Have you taken any action?<\/p>\n
I had shed a significant amount of weight after six months.<\/p>\n
It was both pleasant and eerie at the same time.<\/p>\n
Enough to cause double takes from those who hadn\u2019t seen me in a long time. My aunt grabbed me aside and whispered, \u201cI knew you had it in you,\u201d as if I had passed some secret exam.<\/p>\n
I received greater attention.<\/p>\n
More smiles, more door holds, and more \u201cWow, you look amazing.\u201d<\/p>\n
It was both pleasant and eerie at the same time.<\/p>\n
Their wedding followed.<\/p>\n
I still felt like the girl who was dumped for her best friend who was thinner on the inside.<\/p>\n
Their wedding followed.<\/p>\n
I was aware of the date thanks to social media. \u201cCan\u2019t wait!\u201d was posted by mutual pals using ring emojis. I silenced more people.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m not invited.<\/p>\n
DoorDash, garbage TV, bed, and a silent phone are my plans.\u201dIs this Larkin?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nevertheless, my phone rang at 10:17 a.m.<\/p>\n
Unknown figure.<\/p>\n
I responded out of habit.\u201dHello?\u201d\u201dIs this Larkin?\u201d a lady said in a strained voice.You must come here.Yes.Sayer\u2019s mother is this person.<\/p>\n
Whitlock, Mrs. The ideal passive-aggressive remarks about \u201cus girls\u201d sticking to salad, flawless hair, and flawless pearls.<\/p>\n
I felt my stomach sink.What\u2019s happening? I inquired.Come on over. \u201cPlease.\u201d\u201dYou must come here,\u201d she urged. \u201cAt this moment. Lakeview Country Club. Please. You\u2019ll be shocked by what transpired.\u201dI said, \u201cIs Sayer okay?\u201dHe\u2019s alright,\u201d she yelled. \u201cJust come. Please.\u201d<\/p>\n
I ought to have refused.<\/p>\n
I reached for my keys instead.<\/p>\n
However, there was mayhem in the parking lot.<\/p>\n
Forty minutes away was a country club with well-kept lawns and elegant signs that read \u201cWhitlock Wedding\u201d and included arrows.<\/p>\n
However, there was mayhem in the parking lot.<\/p>\n
Half of the cars are on the grass. Outside, people gathered in gowns and suits and whispered to each other.<\/p>\n
The reception area inside appeared to be in ruins.<\/p>\n
Chairs toppled over. A wonky tablecloth. Glass, petals, and a shattered centerpiece littered the floor. There were sticky spots where the champagne poured.<\/p>\n
Her updo was crumbling.<\/p>\n
Not a coincidence.\u201dLarkin!\u201d<\/p>\n
Mrs. Whitlock rushed over.<\/p>\n
Her updo was crumbling. streaks of mascara. She took hold of my hands as though I were the EMT.\u201dThank God you came,\u201d she remarked.She didn\u2019t take him seriously.\u201d\u201dWhat happened?\u201d I inquired.<\/p>\n
She lowered her voice and drew me in.\u201dThat girl,\u201d she growled. \u201cMaren. She never took him seriously.<\/p>\n
I blinked.Ellie, one of her bridesmaids, approached me this morning. in tears. displayed messages for me. screenshots.<\/p>\n
Despite her anger, she appeared almost delighted.He went up to her.\u201d \u201cShe said, \u201cMaren has been seeing another man.\u201d \u201cLaughing with him about Sayer\u2019s ease. How she would \u201cenjoy the ring and see how long she could ride it\u201d<\/p>\n
My stomach turned over. Once again.Was Sayer able to see them? I inquired.She claimed that he had accosted her. \u201cShe claimed she didn\u2019t want to be committed \u2018to a man with a mom like his,\u2019 labeled him dull, and walked away. in her gown.\u201dThe wedding is off.<\/p>\n
I imagined it and, despite my choice, snorted a little.<\/p>\n
Mrs. Whitlock gave me a firm squeeze.\u201dThis cannot destroy him,\u201d she replied. \u201cPeople are present. Family. His supervisor. It would be embarrassing to cancel.\u201dThe wedding is off,\u201d I declared.\u201dFor now,\u201d she remarked. \u201cBut it doesn\u2019t have to be a disaster.\u201dYou\u2019ve always loved him, Larkin.\u201d<\/p>\n
She stepped back to examine me from head to toe.<\/p>\n
My skin crawled as I saw the light in her eyes.\u201dYou always loved him, Larkin,\u201d she remarked. \u201cYou showed loyalty. Well done to him. And now look at you\u2014you\u2019re stunning. You\u2019re on par with him.<\/p>\n
Once more, it was there.\u201dToday, you and Sayer could have a little ceremony,\u201d she said. \u201cJust a straightforward affair. Face would be spared. Everyone is already familiar with you. That makes sense.Don\u2019t let your hurt sentiments get in the way of this opportunity.<\/p>\n
I gazed at her.\u201dYou called me here to ask me to marry your son,\u201d I answered softly. at his postponed nuptials. To another individual.\u201d<\/p>\n
She scowled.She remarked, \u201cYou\u2019ve always desired to be with him.\u201d \u201cDon\u2019t throw away this chance because your feelings are hurt.\u201d<\/p>\n
I observed the mayhem all around us.<\/p>\n
And for the first time in their story, I recognized myself clearly.<\/p>\n
The shattered glass. The chairs were overturned. The vacant room where a bride had made up her mind that she wanted more.<\/p>\n
And for the first time in their story, I recognized myself clearly.<\/p>\n
I was not a human being.<\/p>\n
I served as a fallback.<\/p>\n
I removed my hands from hers.I won\u2019t be your substitute bride.\u201dNo,\u201d I replied.<\/p>\n
She squinted. \u201cExcuse me?\u201dI stated, \u201cI\u2019m not your substitute bride. \u201cYour son proposed to my closest friend after cheating on me and leaving me. When something goes out, you can\u2019t treat me like a spare tire.\u201d\u201dYou would allow him to be humiliated?\u201d she yelled.<\/p>\n
My heart was racing and my hands were shaking as I drove home.I said, \u201cHe embarrassed himself six months ago.\u201d \u201cThis is just everyone else catching up.\u201d<\/p>\n
I turned and left before she could respond.<\/p>\n
Not a word. Not a scene.<\/p>\n
Simply walked away.<\/p>\n
My heart was racing and my hands were trembling as I drove home.<\/p>\n
There came a tap on my door at 7:42 p.m.<\/p>\n
I brewed tea. I took a seat on my couch. I allowed myself to feel proud of myself for leaving and foolish for going.<\/p>\n
There came a tap on my door at 7:42 p.m.<\/p>\n
Three slamming knocks.<\/p>\n
I looked through the peephole.<\/p>\n
Sayer.You look amazing.\u201d<\/p>\n
Naturally.<\/p>\n
He appeared to be a handsome mess. Eyes inflamed, hair ruined, tie gone, shirt unfastened at the neck.<\/p>\n
With the chain on, I opened the door.<\/p>\n
He actually double-took me as he examined me.\u201dWow,\u201d he exclaimed. \u201cYou look\u2026 incredible.\u201dYou are aware of what she did.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t answer.<\/p>\n
He let out a breath.\u201dIt was a terrible day,\u201d he remarked. \u201cYou know what she did.\u201d\u201dI heard,\u201d I remarked.He remarked, \u201cShe made me look like a joke.\u201d \u201cIn front of everybody. My supervisor. My relatives. It\u2019s on the internet already. Memes are being sent. It\u2019s not good.\u201dYou were, you know, back then.\u201d<\/p>\n
He leaned in closer to the door\u2019s crack.However, things don\u2019t have to remain awful. This is something we can resolve. Me and you.\u201d<\/p>\n
I chuckled. Only once.I said, \u201cYou\u2019re serious.\u201d<\/p>\n
He scowled, perplexed that I wasn\u2019t melting.You look fantastic now.\u201dHe pointed to me and remarked, \u201cYou\u2019ve changed.\u201d \u201cYou were, you know, back then. You did not truly look after yourself. We weren\u2019t compatible. I\u2019m simply being truthful.<\/p>\n
This time, my stomach did not dip.But now?\u201d he asked. \u201cYou look fantastic now. We\u2019d make sense. People would understand it. My reputation would be spared. as well as yours. You wouldn\u2019t be the girl I left behind. I would pick you.\u201d<\/p>\n
And there it was.Do you believe that my reputation needs to be preserved?<\/p>\n
He still presented it as a favor.Do you believe that my reputation needs to be preserved? I inquired.\u201dPeople talk,\u201d he murmured rapidly. \u201cThis could become a tale about finding the right person at last. about the way we were supposed to be.\u201d<\/p>\n
In fact, I grinned.I might have said yes six months ago.\u201d<\/p>\n
He mistook it and relaxed.I said, \u201cYou know what\u2019s funny?\u201d \u201cSix months ago, I might\u2019ve said yes.\u201d<\/p>\n
He parted his lips.<\/p>\n
I prevented him from doing so.I believed that if I shrank, I would at last be sufficient. \u201cBut losing weight just made it easier to see who wasn\u2019t.\u201dI was too good for you, too.\u201d<\/p>\n
His mouth tightened.That\u2019s unfair,\u201d he remarked. \u201cYou were overweight. I told the truth. At least I\u2014\u201dI responded casually, \u201cI was big.\u201d \u201cAnd I was still too good for you.\u201d<\/p>\n
He became motionless.I said, \u201cYou didn\u2019t leave because I couldn\u2019t be loved.\u201d \u201cYou left because you wanted a prize and you\u2019re shallow. Your life wasn\u2019t ruined by Maren. She simply performed better in your game.\u201dI don\u2019t need your affection after all.\u201dHe responded, \u201cYou can\u2019t speak to me in this manner.\u201d\u201dI can,\u201d I said. \u201cBecause I don\u2019t need you to love me after.\u201d<\/p>\n
I removed the door\u2019s chain.<\/p>\n
A glimmer of hope appeared on his face.<\/p>\n
I barely opened it enough to look him in the eyes.Don\u2019t act this way.\u201dI said, \u201cI deserve better.\u201d \u201cAnd the finest aspect? At last, I think that.<\/p>\n
I shut the door after that.<\/p>\n
I locked it.<\/p>\n
He knocked again, more gently.\u201dLarkin,\u201d he murmured. \u201cDon\u2019t be like this.\u201d<\/p>\n
It was the conviction that I needed to gain even the most basic respect.<\/p>\n
I turned to leave.<\/p>\n
For the most part, I didn\u2019t lose 80 pounds or any other figure on a chart.<\/p>\n
It was the conviction that I needed to gain even the most basic respect.<\/p>\n
It collapsed at my ex\u2019s wedding. I was recruited by his mother to be his emergency wife. He arrived at my door as though I were a publicity stunt.<\/p>\n
I also didn\u2019t compromise myself to meet someone else\u2019s definition of love for the first time in my life.<\/p>\n
I remained the same person.<\/p>\n
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